Do you ever feel like a failure? Like no matter what you try to do in life it always feels like two steps forward and three steps back? I applied for a job recently that seemed PERFECT. It also seemed like I had a great chance at getting it. They called yesterday and offered me a part-time position. Part-time. Well crap. I don't need a part-time position. I need a full-time job that treats me with respect and offers me benefits. Where I don't go to work constantly worried that my boss is judging me on made up rules in her head that I just haven't figured out yet. I want to have benefits so that I don't have to worry about G losing his job and our family not having any insurance. I want to have a little extra money so we could actually get a bigger car. Please note that I didn't say a brand new car or a really fancy car, just something a little new and a little bigger. Is that really too much to ask for? All a part-time job would do is eat into the small amount of time I get to spend with my family as it is. It would be working at home but I can barely keep my house together as it is. My laundry is constantly behind and half the time it feels like we live in a house that a thief has ransacked looking for some unknown treasure. I'm so freaking torn about this. The money from a part-time job would really help and would really be nice but would it be worth it? Crap, crap, crap.